25

I want to show you the ecstasy I want to take you where my phantasy grows and the blue of the sky is made – feel like heaven

radarkontroll 1993

24

twisting and turning reality so it fits to the letters that they can believe keep on yearning insanity no matter how right you are you still bring that grief – how long has it been this way for how long I don’t know and how long how long don’t you know?

radarkontroll undated

23

I am your lover’s lover, sweetie
Sorry I wasn’t told about you
I am your lover’s lover, sugar,
The truth comes shining through
And as your lover’s lover, girl
I didn’t mean to hurt you,
No, I didn’t mean to do that to you.

radarkontroll 2007

22

Do you know the feeling when life seems to be a game

where everyone knows the rules

but they forgot to tell you?

Do you know those days when you feel like crying but you can’t, because the air is a thick syrup slowing down your head?

It’s like no one seems to care and

no smile will reach you.

When all you want is to rest in the arms of a loved one  – who’s not there.

You want to play by the rules

you don’t understand

some you don’t know

because there is no place

you might fight

no society you can

attach to

The mould you won’t fit in

the numbers that won’t work for you

You see your face

but you look away

your body hurts because

it doesn’t want to belong to you.

Your hope was to stop somewhere nice, but there is no way back.

There is no rest

driven by an aimless force

longing, longing for a time

to be, just be

with an easy mind and

a floating body

with a warm touch

of understanding.

A place safe from worries

and doubt, souldestructing doubt.

Where is the you

if there is no me?

radarkontroll 2006

21

there is a cigarette on the concrete

some ink for this experiment

as we always investigate in thinking

and give best latex to nudist junk models

soft smoke which would approach us no more

then our glasses did sculpt an empty scream

and  I could observe his absurd aestheticism

he is young, glorious, wild and full of purple passion

but my grace appeared from above

when she said come

almost drunk

radarkontroll 2001

20

is the fresh blood you’re waiting for the kill in your head, wrapping darkness around you?

radarkontroll 2008

19

life

birth

learn cry laugh grow create destroy lose perceive

death

but forever love

radarkontroll 1996

18

A bad childhood is such a lame excuse for irresponsible behaviour as an adult.

radarkontroll 2010

17

deep green wood

open up pictures

never through dust in me

impression of death

I feel old but try

hard

so why feel blue?

radarkontroll 2001

16

white horses in the black sky

are flying swiftly while looking down at us